jiahui is as happy as people getting CAP4.9 or CAP5.0!! :D :D
cause asian bellz concert is finally OVER! (:
felt so super relieved okays.
phew~
now im only left with 2xmas shows on the 24th and 25th.
&1 msia tour concert with a bunch of camwhores! lol.
and YAY! my 27th is fweeeeeeeee.
now i get one more fwee day to rest! (:
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
12:17 AM
ohmans.
today was a FREAKING STRESSFUL DAY!
first stupid results.
stupid new isis system.
then at lunch, grace dropped a bomb on me!
she's still sick and she couldnt apear for esplanade at night.
i felt really bad for not going last sunday, so decided to take over her today.
and OMG. esplanade plus D around,= stress level x200.
i almost cried kays.
cause first, due to time constraint, i almost thought i couldn't make it on time.
i was like rushing my way to the esplanade.
but thankfully, there's CV there today.
so my stress immediately dropped to the minimum.
phew~
anyways, esplanade show was fun!
and i get to keep my tag!
hahahas.
my first esplanade tag kays. so noob, i know. hahahs.
tomorrow's the big day.
and my oedo sucks.
luckily mel agreed to swop sayang2 notes with me!
YAY(:
hopefully my stress level will be reduced to the minimum soon.
it's really tiring and scary to live in a world FULL OF STRESS okays.
today was really a day of madness.
i felt like i chionged everywhere.
i didnt even have time for dinner >.<
lucky there's still food home!
off to eat my tangyuan.
which i still haven eat, even though everyone's been telling me since morning that they had theirs alr. hahs.
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
10:34 PM
stress level going up!
hais.
stress level x101.
just 1 more concert, 2 more xmas show and 1 more tour concert.
then it'll all be over.
i can't take stress.
i don't know how to handle it.
im having 2nd thoughts bout my external cca.
cause i found one person who i really CANNOT work with.
cause she thinks so highly of herself.
she thinks that she's above the rest.
just cause she used to be a gepper.
i wonder what they thought her back in school.
maybe their school ringers are just -.-
i'm not happy.
but i didnt emo.
i just chose to walk down orchard road alone.
to prove that i can overcome the weakness of an extrovert.
i'm just so tired. so stressed. and so sian.
i have my reasons for not going home early.
and yes, i'm upset.
but nonetheless, i really love the hp pouch! hahas.
looking at it really makes me LAUGHOUTLOUD.
hahahahahahas.
and it's the 1st bdae gift i got this year too..
i finally understand why people stopped celebrating birthdays.
birthdays really aint something big.
I HATE MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR.
and i mean it.
IT SUCKS.
and my mood's down to the max.
so you better not anger me,
or i'll shout at you.
cause my tolerance level is going down. down down down down down.
`where were those days that i could get you to sit somewhere with me & stone... those days; long gone~i walked past wisma.i got reminded of starbucks...everyday i would wish that val&cloneee faster come back from yep,budden i asked myself today,"are you sure you would be happy even if you went out with them?"
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
10:51 PM
feeling shit freaking tired!!!!!!!!!!!!
rah.
my hair's so wet that i can't go to bed.
and i'm so tired that i can't even be bothered to find the hairdryer......
it was a uber long day.
with plenty of ups and downs.
not only standing up and sitting down, but seriously, ups&downs.
saw the different side of people.
kinda disgusted at "HER".
*IRRITATED*
it was a stressful days kays.
did a whole run thru of the concert.
felt so guilty that i was still sight-reading >.<
hais.
i promised myself to work hard and bring home those respective scores tomorrow...
all of us didnt really get to eat lunch.
didnt even have enuff time to run thru concert, much less reach on time for show at harbourfront.
hokays. it was really FREAKING STRESSFUL playing next to D.
lucky i've got pearlin to cover for me (: (:
clarke quay was FUN! :D :D
it's fun when roland's around!
he always make cold jokes to lighten the stressful conditions (:
regret not going home straight after the 10pm show...
can u believe at 2325, we were still sitting by the river?!?! hahahahs.
and i reached home like 0030?!
if i left immediately, could have gotten lift from mel.
*regrets*
now i'm seriously goddamn tired!
still got concert prac and isetan tomorrow!
DIE.
cant wait for all of these to be over.
it's like not-enough-sleep plus stress!
so the past 2 days were actually to help me replenish my energy&sleep!
and i decided to reserve 28th and 29th to MYSELF.
i need rest..... & a break from stressssssssssssssssssssssss.
thankfully ive got no shows on 21st and 22nd!
cause 23rd's the BIG DAY!
totally forgotten bout the release of results on the 22nd.
all these shows&concert dates are screwing me up.
totally lost track of all other events =X
*sleeeeeeepy*
i think my laptop is falling asleep too.
it's like so frigging lag, somewhat like it's dozing off too!
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
12:55 AM
it's easy to find people with the same interest.
but to find people of the same degree of passion...... hmmx.
you know i <33 handbells.
i really do(:
tomorrow's gonna be a tough one!
i hope i don't faint halfway.
its like a 930am to 1030pm thingy.
first, prac.
then rush to the 1st venue.
after that rush to the 2nd venue.
by the time the 10pm show ends, plus packing, it'll most prolly be 11?
GG.
bless me.
or rather, i hope i don't bump into familiar faces >.<
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
9:55 PM
where are you when i needed someone to talk to?
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
9:08 PM
Jiahui is thankful to all who bothered to wish her happy birthday via SMS!
cause it goes to show her importance is worth at least an sms(:
esp
valval! who smsed me all the way from cambodia :D
blurblock me misread 18 for 16.
tot there was the performance at Clarke quay today.
Happily pulled Mummy along to watch.
bahx. How blur can I get :X
sadded.
Mummy decided to bring me out for dinner.
But as usual, she complained that everything's EX
hais.
if only she knew how much I usually spend on food, think she'll be totally appalled...
P.S to those who haven't wished me happy birthday, you've got 2 hours left!
especially BAG!! I'll be totally disappointed if mee forgot me's birthday :(
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
9:20 PM
Why does it seem like everyone's missing or away :(
anyways hermit plan suceeded! (:
jiahui is super happy that one of her bdae wish is fulfilled =D
hahahas
finally.
I waited for one whole yr to prove my theory wrong!
wheeeeee~!
YAYS!
Thanks for all the birthday wishes(:
esp cloneee for the x3 message. HAHA.
Looking at my calendar, it kinda makes me really depressed..
Only left with 18, 22, 28, 29th freeeee:(
boohoo!
And I still wanna go out with LAOPOs, mp, meeeee+jas+val, shifus, seehooi, etc.
NO TIME! argh.
plus there's still 101 things I wanna do...
can't even plan a proper class chalet:(
hope ahgong manages to plan class outing! :D
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
4:07 PM
yay!
guess what.
i spent my last day of my teens playing audition at yq's house!
hahahs.
and ohwells.
im such a noob.
hahas.
cui to the max!
rah.
but it was fun. wahahas.
time to go hiding!
hahahs.
mourn over the death of my teenage years.
boohoo):
credits to tracy! for the idea of hermit-ing on her bdae.
i think the idea's quite cool & im gonna give it a try.
though i always <33 the company of friends&family(: (:
but the idea's worth a try :D
anyways, it's one of my rare days left for hols.
first time hermit-ing on my birthday!
hopefully it'll be fun =D
`it's lost; gone.
sad that its over? nahx.
more like glad & relieved.
surprised with what 8 days of hols can do to my life.
change it like never before.
stop looking back; let go of the past.
tomorrow shall be brand new day,
a brand new start.
i want my 20th anew.
forget all that should be forgotten!
stop lingering in the past(:
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
10:29 PM
not only is it difficult,
it seems like mission impossible.
with nothing in my brain,
no helplines.
seems like there's nothing i can do.
i realised,
it really takes A LOT to know a person.
the interactions.
only then can you make it a perfect one.
i guess last year was the first
&also the last time i could make something seem memorable.
this time,
clueless.
no matter how much effort i put in,
or how hard i try to give it my best,
i guess it'll never be as good as last year's...
for now,
i shall just let my empty brain rest.
recooperate from not sleeping last night.
&somehow come up with something tmrw(:
today was a pretty amazing day.
kinda shocked at all the happenings.
maybe tomorrow will be better! =D
still trying to adapt to the difference in env.
8days of being china-lised really kinda screwed me.
no more EC le.
maybe someday i'll bump into him on the streets~
till then, life goes back to normal.
know what? i'm actually thankful for being away for 8days.
calmed down & reflected.
know my directions & know what i want.
that's all i need to know(:
`it's not as easy as i thought it would be.
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
12:16 AM
i have 1001 reasons to why you should NOT go to china.
ask me, and i'll slowly tell you.
for once, my overseas trip really sucked.
super glad to be back home.
aching like siao now.
first time cycling 14km in winter.
wth.
pretty shocked that i managed to complete the round.
esp since the freaking path was so uneven and it was like 1degreescelsius.
attempting to hermit as much as possible, now that im back.
though i doubt i can do it....
performances + practises + concert + msia trip
yikes.
there goes my hols ):
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
12:20 PM
im bored.
china really doesnt interest me
i cant wait to get back!
hais.
suren's right.
arent i sick of seeing prcs?!
hais.
for once, i really dislike my overseas trip...
i miss nz!
i miss my nz tourmates!
they're so much fun to be with.
butbut.
this time. there's a plus.
i've got a NEW EYECANDY!
hahhahas.
:D :D
3 more days....
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
11:21 PM
yikes.
no time no time!
shit
i feel so stressed.
hahahas.
was out since 9 till 6.
gosh.
but cca was uber fun!
practised for concert and xmas gigs.
hahas.
super exciting! hahahas.
so sad i couldnt go watch the show tonight at cathay ):
but pearlyn's so nice to help me
and let me practise cause i dun have time at all to practise le.
hais.
gg. haven packed luggage.
just managed to clear my bro's desk only.
rah.
still in a mess =X
now i can't find my charger.................
ARGH.
*stressed*
why suddenly no time?
eeeeeks.
i can't believe i was so busy that i almost forgot my papa's birthday!
hahahas.
his BIGBIG 21st birthday! =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPS!
i'll be awaiting for my bdae prezzie. HEE :D
seeyou people when i'm back!
anything just message,
cause i'll be bringing my phone(:
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
6:19 PM
today was soooooooo FUN!
wheeee~!
&&i convinced myself that fun is not bout novelty.
it's bout going out with people you love(:
WE HAD JOY
WE HAD FUN
we had a great time in the rain.
o.O
hahahas.
we bumped into quite a few seniors too..
anyways, i finally found my fave icecream!
shiok.
and i found an icecream buddy!
wheeeeee~
went to cycle!
cause the rain kinda stopped(:
but halfway thru, it started to rain again.
so we stopped a pavilion.
chitchat&nua&sleep on the bench.
the feeling was superb!
just 2 of us,
chillax-ing.
it rawks!
hahahs.
forgot to mention.
i feel young today!
hahahas
cause i'm the YOUNGER one.
who's still not twenty YET.
HEE =D
we were at parkway, when there was this pokemon show..
it was soooo cute okays!
'clap clap! stomp stomp! jump jump! shake shake!'
oops =X
i was just relieving my childhood days >.<
hahas.
went for class outing at night.
as usual.
only gal with 7guys.
&the topic revolved round ORD
ause apparently 4 of them haven gotten their pinkICs yet.
&anyways, i was appalled today.
justin's hairstyle was O.M.G
&seriously, the pharm juniors really totally skewed my idea of skinny.
i used to tink that my jc class guys are skinny! even my mum tinks so.
but now...either they put on weight. or, seriously, junior guys really skewed my impression.
zzzz.
jc class quite pathetic.
sat by the river to drink.
zzz.
seriously, i think beer STINKS. -.-
but i really really love today.
it was like my pre-birthday celebration!
but then again,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BLURBLOCK!
hope you had fun today tooooooo(:
p.s i was really happy & high! till i saw ............. fb.
why cloneee! whyyyyyyyyyyy ):
xmas is coming :D
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
12:57 AM
omgosh.
the idea of being selfish came across my mind today.
the thought of : save yourself first!
hais
whatever the case.
argh.
i really dislike the idea that im going china.
suren was right.
'haven you seen enough prcs here?'
hahahas.
plus the tour is like freaking huge.
almost 50 ppl.
i bet it's all ahgongs and ahmas.
SIAN TTM.
yq says im already in the yellow river.
jy say i die alr.
but its okay.
so long as we all know its not the truth! (: (:
anyways,
i decided not to hermit le!
cause i dun wanna end up like last dec.
turning into misery and depression..
this time, im gonna try to enjoy to the fullest =D
so hermit no more.
and i didnt even last a day >.<
cloneee's so right.
i'll never succeed in hermit-ing.
i'll only succeed in avoiding people whom i need/want to avoid (:
`it doesnt really matter what you think.
what really matters is how i feel.
&when i say it's not, it really isnt!
ARGH.p.s mummy got me a new mp3!
wheeeeee~! :D
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
9:58 PM
so proud of myself today!
i finally found time to go for a run =D
when you have plenty of anger or energy to spare,
the best avenue, alternative to ranting, would be to go for a run.
run it all out.
drain all your energy.
then you wont have the strength to feel irritated anymore (:
stupid SEAHJIANYUAN!
argh.
why other people go dhoby, can get to see aaron kwok.
but i only got to see carebears dancing..
but it's okay! cause carebears are adorable :D
hahas.
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
8:49 PM
DEEP SHIT.
ohgreat.
i landed myself in deep shit.
already not enough sleep.
was :( enough to know that my guess was correct.
tried going home EARLIER to correct all the wrongs,
who knew i went home to get more lashings from both my MUM and my DAD.
hais.
what is this man!
everything in this world comes in opposite pairs.
for every yin, there's a yang. etc.
for every angel that you meet, you find a devil elsewhere.
why bother trying so hard to be an angel...
what's wrong with being the devil?
at least it'll make my life feel better.
this world is complicated.
and it's getting more and more complexed each day.
if only everything could be simplified.
or as simple as ABC.
maybe then i wouldnt have to crack my brains and fret over useless stuff.
and everyone will seem more gullible and HARMLESS....
):
wanted to walk down the street from dhoby to orchard.
since i wanted to be alone
&the christmas lightings are really pretty.
but it'll seem a lil too emo.
anyways,
hermit-ing starts NOW.
you prolly wont see me till next sem...
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
12:18 AM
i was wondering.
what is true happiness?
no doubt i had ALOT of FUN today~!
but still, i aint really happy.
not like what i expected myself to be.
somehow things just always don't go the way you want it to be.
it's like Le-Chatelier's Principle.
hais.
but luckily,
i found my idea of true happiness(:
was browsing through all the facebook photos...
true happiness = candid shots + company of friends + supper + birthday celebrations+ camwhoring at holland v in the middle of the night + ocyte, oocye, ooocyte + nua-ing at T3 + guarding birthday cake while attempting to mug
now i can go sleep feeling awesomely happy :D
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
1:00 AM
omgomgomg!
i broke my high score today!
woots.
113.
personal best :D
now i don't mind going bowling anymore~ wheeeeee~!
and YAY i think meee rawks(:
cause meee always know THE WAY!
hahahhaas.
he's like a walking travel guide!
plus he's always around to help!
HEE =D
cloneee rawks(: (:
aka I rock! hahahahs.
&omg. i can't believe i saw smoke.
never expected to see him ever again.
&anyways, i finally BROKE THE ICE!
now i can report to ting alr(:
but why must it be at dhoby AGAIN.......
argh!
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
9:09 PM
jiahui feels sadded to the max )=
and she doesn't know why...
she just feel like running home after exams tomorrow,
hide at home for the coming week....till she flies off~
cancel all outings and be a HERMIT =X
it isnt DFD that is emo-inducing, just so you know.
`music sounding in the heart; that never stops--
1:05 PM
